Boozhoo! Aaniin! Welcome to the midweek(ish) version of An Irritable Métis. This is where things are usually a little more random, a little less … irritable. This one is particularly self serving, I have to confess. Meanwhile, if you forgot what all this is even about, you may remind yourself here. If you want to help keep a writer out of hard labor, well….

I spent too long tonight sitting and staring out the window watching how this spring light of evening, renewed as it is every year, played across the bottom of the clouds lingering over the rocky crags of the ponderosa-covered ridge of my immediate western horizon. It feels like a miracle sometimes, doesn’t it, this changing light, all because of how this stupendous planet dips and bows to the sun? A miracle, and yet when I catch myself sitting with it my first reaction is to be irritated with myself for “wasting” time when I should be working. Yet, next to saying, “Of course!” when a fourth grade girl ended class by asking, “Can I have a hug?” it was likely the most important thing I did all day.
Now the voices of the robins, whose return is also miraculous, are kicking up with their evening vigor, the same vigor with which they were the first to begin the day, and I wonder if they slept all afternoon so as to be back at their perches as night settled in.
I saw a wood duck on the river yesterday. I also sat on the bank and watched a herons’ nest and received the gift of witnessing the male, presumably, return with food for the female perched there. Such graceful, magnificent birds. The cliff swallows are back too, careening over the water’s surface in their relentless pursuit of bugs. Never mind the great horned owls calling back and forth, the riot of red-winged blackbirds congregated in a single tree, and chickadees surrounding my truck as I hesitated to leave, reminding me I hadn’t eaten yet with their taunts of, “Cheeeeeseburger! Cheeeeeseburger!”
Speaking of miracles, I was thinking tonight to write of ways the universe provides for us at times, the way it has provided for me at times, when things just unexpectedly, against all odds, work out. It starts to sound white lighty, I know, but it happens. It happens. But I got side-tracked because I dug into One-Sentence Journal to find a specific poem related to the subject and lingered therein with lines I’d forgotten I’d written. I haven’t done this in some time. For whatever this book has come to mean to other people, it remains a collection of short stories to myself. So much has changed — I don’t fly fish anymore, I don’t really meet people for coffee and beers anymore, etc. — yet I still love the world every bit as much as I ever did. And I still miss, desperately, my little Darla the Adventure Dog.
Do you need convincing that a short poem can tell a story? We did acrostic poems today, a form I’ve never written but that I thought the kids might enjoy. They did. And a ten year-old girl wrote this poem, working off of “cat”:
Try and tell me this isn’t a cracker of a story. Try and tell me kids aren’t miracles.
Cold Weather Craft Series
Freeflow has had this ongoing series going through the winter called the Cold Weather Craft Series. Basically, each episode a writer — people like my pal Heather Hansman, Joe Wilkins, and Chandra Brown herself — does a short little audio workshop. I was happy to do one myself! You can check it out HERE if you want to hear what my voice sounds like inside my truck parked at the backside of a dead-end road. It’s only about twelve minutes long.
Glutton for Punishment?
If you listened to that and you just can’t get enough, HERE is me bloviating for about an hour with Lewistown Public Library’s “In the Stacks” podcast host (and writer!) Brittney Uecker. This was recorded just a week ago — Live! In person! — during my busiest day ever in Lewistown. It was a blast. I hope it comes across as fun as it was to do. That entire trip was wonderful. Oh, and the library there is gorgeous.
And Finally….
Here’s that “universe” poem (sort of) I was digging around in OSJ for. It’s a story too, if only to myself, about a particular morning, a particular day, a particular night….
Friends, I leave you with these words from Richard Wagamese, who writes, “I believe we become immortal through the process of learning to love the ones with whom we share this planet.”
Here’s to immortality, then. Chi-miigwech, as ever, for your support.
My historical book group just discussed Thunder in the Mountain (the English translation of his indigenous name is Chief Joseph of the Nez Perce) but I prefer the translation of his native name. I read a passage from your penultimate blog about the respect for the buffalo who are caged in an area just as the Native Americans ar confined to land no white man wants. I also discussed with then the harm the “founding fathers” especially the ones on the dollar bills caused irreparable harm to both the Indigenous people and the wild life. One question: I am now reading Louise Erdrich’s book The Sentence and she ends it with the same word you end this post: miigwich. What does that word mean?
Since I live in North Carolina If I could time travel I would love to go back to Cherokee land in the 900’s before white people ever came to North
Carolina. Fresh air, unpolluted water and soil and the beautiful blue Ridge Mountains. A culture where women where valued and the animals were brothers and sisters. Warmer weather than you have in Montana, but the comradeship in the lodges would be so supportive emotionally. I do enjoy your poetry as I taught poetry on the college level and identified most with Mary Oliver whose poems about nature always offer me great solace. I look forward to reading your poems. Many of them touch my heart.
Hi Chris,
Loved this! So beautiful. The photo of Darla really made me smile.
My favorite moments include those when I am sitting on our balcony watching and listening to the wind ruffling through the treetops. Maple, oak, red pine, cherry, crabapple. Sublime. I have never considered this indulgence a waste of time. I think of it more as a gift.
Your students will perpetuate your immortality.
With regard to my earliest remembrances of opening my heart, when I was a child I was once quoted as saying, “If you looked like my Daddy I would love you”.
If I ever fulfill my dream of visiting Montana I sure do hope that you will be able to take time out to share a cup of coffee with me. My treat.
Sincerely,
Melissa