Sent here by AHP's newsletter! I am non-binary (AFAB), but deeply embarrassed by public crying, especially in a context where I am being watched by an audience. I think this is because I was relied upon from a young age to self-soothe: public crying is a sign that not only can I not handle my emotions, but also that I'm (selfishly) burde…
Sent here by AHP's newsletter! I am non-binary (AFAB), but deeply embarrassed by public crying, especially in a context where I am being watched by an audience. I think this is because I was relied upon from a young age to self-soothe: public crying is a sign that not only can I not handle my emotions, but also that I'm (selfishly) burdening others with them. These days I find myself longing for more good crying opportunities -- I feel very numb to the goings-on of the outside world most days -- but I think I will have to make do until I can start seeing other humans again.
That numbness is so hard. That's the last thing we want to feel, isn't it? But we do what we can, and let's hope we are all hugging it out in the streets sooner than later.
Sent here by AHP's newsletter! I am non-binary (AFAB), but deeply embarrassed by public crying, especially in a context where I am being watched by an audience. I think this is because I was relied upon from a young age to self-soothe: public crying is a sign that not only can I not handle my emotions, but also that I'm (selfishly) burdening others with them. These days I find myself longing for more good crying opportunities -- I feel very numb to the goings-on of the outside world most days -- but I think I will have to make do until I can start seeing other humans again.
That numbness is so hard. That's the last thing we want to feel, isn't it? But we do what we can, and let's hope we are all hugging it out in the streets sooner than later.